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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Day 317

Thoughts: Who eats, you or your pain-body?

You know there are times when I feel great, and feeling great seems naturally simple, and I eat healthy, it also seems easy and natural to be healthy and to exercise. And then there are those times when I crave heavy foods, and that nothing will get in the way of me having just that, and even I know will do nothing but make me feel worse after, and once I eat it and feel worse I find myself having more, doing it again and again to feel worse and worse - even though yesterday I said "This will be the last time".

You may feel crazy like you have split personalities, like one part of you wants health and the other creates destruction and sabotage? Consider that one part of you is your essence, the you who is pure love, peace and joy. The other which creates more pain over and over again like a vicious cycle is a negative entity living in you, but is not you - or what some call the 'pain-body'.

Eckhart Tolle the author of The Power Of Now and A New Earth talks about the pain body as accumulated pain, a negative energy field that occupies your body and mind.

If you look at it as an invisible entity in its own right, you are getting quite close to the truth. It's the emotional pain body. It has two modes of being: dormant and active....

When it is dormant perhaps you feel it is easy to be healthy; to think healthy thoughts, to eat light healthy foods and exercise. When it is active however the pain-body wants to create more pain, it wants to survive so you may find yourself in a vicious circle of bingeing, starving yourself, or eating foods that make you feel only worse after eating them. Which ever creates the most pain, the pain-body does it.

Why would you eat from your pain-body?

The pain body wants to survive, just like every other entity in existence, and it can only survive if it gets you to unconsciously identify with it. It can then rise up, take you over, "become you," and live through you. It needs to get its "food" through you. It will feed on any experience that resonates with its own kind of energy, anything that creates further pain in whatever form: anger, destructiveness, hatred, grief, emotional drama, violence, and even illness.

So the pain body, when it has taken you over, will create a situation in your life that reflects back its own energy frequency for it to feed on. Pain can only feed on pain. Pain cannot feed on joy. It finds it quite indigestible.

Once the pain body has taken you over, you want more pain. You become a victim or a perpetrator. You want to inflict pain, or you want to suffer pain, or both. There isn't really much difference between the two. You are not conscious of this, of course, and will vehemently claim that you do not want pain. But look closely and you will that your thinking and behavior are designed to keep the pain going, for yourself and others.

If you were truly conscious of it, the pattern would dissolve, for to want more pain is insanity, and nobody is consciously insane.

Its survival depends on your unconscious identification with it, as well as on your unconscious fear of facing the the pain that lives in you. But if you don't face it, if you don't bring the light of your consciousness into the pain, you will be forced to relive it again and again. The pain body may seem to you like a dangerous monster that you cannot bear to look at, but I assure you that it is an insubstantial phantom that cannot prevail against the power of your presence.

So the pain body doesn't want you to observe it directly and see it for what it is. The moment you observe, feel its energy field within you, and take your attention into it, the identification is broken. A higher dimension of consciousness has come in. I call it presence.

You are now the witness or the watcher of the pain body. This means that it cannot use you anymore by pretending to be you, and it can no longer replenish itself through you. You have found your own inner strength. You have accessed the power of Now.

Does everyone have a pain-body?

Yes. The pain body consists of trapped life-energy that has split off from your total energy field and has temporarily become autonomous through the unnatural process of mind identification. It has turned in on itself and become anti-life, like an animal trying to devour its own tail. Why do you think our civilization has become so life-destructive?

How long the feeding time lasts of any particular pain body varies greatly from person to person, I could be a brief one, it could be an hour or two; some pain bodies have a feeding time of several weeks, even months. That is the extreme and in very extreme cases there are some pain bodies that have virtually no dormant stage that are continuously feeding and active.

The pain that is carried over from your childhood and beyond and leaves residue doesn’t go away completely, it leaves residues of pain, Energy fields, everything is Energy. And then those Energy Fields get together, because they feel, they vibrate at the same frequency. So emotional pain gathers into one mass of pain, contracted Energy, that isn’t flowing freely.

Being the pain-body

When the pain-body has taken you over and has succeeded in pretending that that’s 'Who you are', all your thinking is completely aligned with it. And it’s feeding on it. At that very moment the last thing you want is to be free of pain. At that moment pain IS what you want because at that moment, You are the Painbody.

Being free of the pain-body

You are the one who is able to allow the pain to be. You know you are not creating this pain at this moment because you are practicing accepting “what is”. So it is not pain you are creating, it is old pain. You bring the “acceptance” to the old pain.

So I am not saying, we are not fighting the pain we are not even trying to get rid of it. You bring the consciousness, which is a very compassionate state of allowing “what is”. It is a very powerful state it implies you are Present. As the one who is able to allow.

If you do not recognize how the Painbody operates, it will trick every time and you will lose consciousness through it.

First we realize “there is an Energy Field of pain in me”, that may manifest either as turbulence, anger, heaviness, depression, tightness, fear whatever way it manifests its not pleasant its painful its past pain but very much alive still.

Focus attention on the feeling inside you. Know that it is the pain body. Accept that it is there. Don't think about it - don't let the feeling turn into thinking. Don't judge or analyze. Don't make an identity for yourself out of it. Stay present, and continue to be the observer of what is happening inside you. Become aware not only of the emotional pain but also of "the one who observes," the silent watcher.

This is the power of the Now, the power of your own conscious presence. Then see what happens.

Source: Eckhart Tolle

Quotes: The Pain-body; Unconsciousness creates it; consciousness transmutes it into itself.

What I Ate Today:

Meal 1: A beet, carrot, celery, ginger and spinach juice :)

Meal 2: Rockmelon (cantaloupe)

Meal 3: 3 Chocolate Peanut Butter Cups! If you like Reese's Peanut Butter Cups these are divine! No sugar, dairy, preservatives, artificial anythings! Created with cacao, cacao butter, agave and peanuts! mmm :)

Meal 4: Curried Lentil Sprout Salad. Created from lentil sprouts, olive oil, cumin, tumeric, cayenne pepper, carrots, corriander (cilantro) and lemon.

Meal 5: A avocado and some brazil nuts :)

Meal 6: Guacamole with carrot and celery sticks :)

Recipe: The recipe for Chocolate Peanut Butter Cups, Curried Lentil Sprout Salad and Guacamole with carrot and celery is available on The Earth Diet website free www.TheEarthDiet.Org

Exercise: A workout with the Manny (hehe my husband) at Big Al's Family Fitness working on legs and shoulders :)

48 days to go!!!

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