Day 221

Thoughts: We have nothing to do.

A beautiful exchange between Jonathan Stone, a great friend of mine.

"Something I just figured out is that our act of wanting more in life and growing and achieving things is the act that keeps us coming back to this existence. In Buddhism they teach that once you come to a point in your life of letting go of everything and being content in the here and now and not needing to strive for anything then you have reached enlightenment and no need to come back. That's why the Buddhist try to maintain this lifestyle is because they are at true peace in the present moment and have no need for anything. They have learned to quiet there ego of pursuit for physical desires.

So the energy that these certain people who follow this belief attract to them in the long run is the chance of not coming back... How interesting is that???

By me wanting more in my life, I'm calling out to the universe for more wanting and that my ego wants more in life, so when I pass on I will still want more... But if I flow the principles of not wanting anything more and just truly being in the present moment, this will quiet down the ego to the point of not wanting anything anymore and as in the Buddhist traditions I would reach enlightenment.

I believe this has become one of the main causes of my restlessness recently... Do I care about the pursuit of life which feeds my ego into wanting more in life or do I pursue a life free from pursuit of physical and materialism and just truly be in the present moment, ONE.

I am still confused with which path to take, and most probably my own ego of wanting to know what to do is is the main culprit."

I wrote back,

"Hey beautiful being named Jonathan, I have been pondering the same lately. I have been watching my ego (when I am not consumed by it) and learning the addiction to pain and suffering it has. My ego is constantly wanting more, trying to achieve something, reach a particular place, searching for things and outside circumstances to make the inside brighter, happier, peaceful. Of course a vicious circle illusion!

Being on earth is like a jail cell for our being, the toughest planet - our infinite light, our beingness trapped inside a body and ego addicted to pain and suffering. Like you said and the Buddhist belief, I believe we come here to play in the toughest planet and reach enlightenment when we realize we have an attachment to everything, our bodies, loved ones, things. When we die, and that we never really die only our bodies do, we are left with our consciousness. And if one is conscious they go to that place, if one is unconscious they go to that place - a hell. I still have a lot of work to do. I am my own worst enemy more than I love my self unconditionally and forgiving myself for choosing to come to earth!

I will always remember Thor, a friend of mine saying "Close your eyes, what you can see is yours" -nothing :) "

Jonathan replied "It is a interesting/vicious circle we live in lol. If I continue living life and wanting more, I will always invite myself to come back and still want more but on the positive side the universe will continue to expand and grow as we continue to create. But if I live a life free of ego, you get to a point of letting go these bonds that keep bringing us back here and reach pure enlightenment, but the only thing you will be sharing with the universe is peace and harmony. A very tough dilemma...lol

I am honored for you to share these interesting conversations that we have in your blogs. We are all connected and all expressing what the universal consciousness is feeling. I really enjoy your blogs and thank you for sharing them with everyone.

Next time your walking down a crowded street or passage way filled with people walking your way, try and listen and catch one word or sentence from each person that walks past you then add all the words together. You will be surprised what conversation you will be listening too. I believe since we are all connected as a universal consciousness, there is something that is being said by the whole... Just some food for thought:))) "

Ultimately there is nothing for us to do.

Challenges: My ego

Triumphs: My ego

What I Ate Today:

Food fest 1: macadamia nuts.

Food fest 2: grapes.

Food fest 3: watermelon.

Food fest 4: 2 avocados.

Food fest 5: a nectarine.

Food fest 6: macadamia nuts and brazil nuts.

Exercise: Working, stretching, moving, walking on film set 'Squid Man' and that's a wrap! Heading home to New York tomorrow :)

144 days to go!!!