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Friday, June 4, 2010

Day 219

Thoughts: Wisdom - it will light your darkest hour

In the dictionary wisdom means a good sense of judgment, accumulated knowledge. Wisdom however is much more than an explanation in a dictionary.

One of his students asked Buddha,
"Are you the messiah?"
"No", answered Buddha.
"Then are you a healer?"
"No", Buddha replied.
"Then are you a teacher?" the student persisted.
"No, I am not a teacher."
"Then what are you?" asked the student, exasperated.
"I am awake", Buddha replied.

I am not perfect, and I never will be, yet I am perfect, whole and complete. Am I trying to reach this unattainable place of perfection? For many years I was waiting for my 'real' life to begin, living in a someday world. I would wait to start things tomorrow. I still slip in and out of the illusion.

I live by 'I can be do or have anything, and so can everyone, so long as you believe it.' We are all running the treadmill, working, trying to find love when it is already inside of us, make more money, get 'better', get richer, famous, popular, ahead.

My sole purpose is to experience the fullest glory. I experience that when I am present. The totality of my experience is not available to me if I am not here now in this moment fully.

We are all here to re-member who we are. And we are that of peace and love and joy. But we have to first forget who we are to remember who we are. And then create who we are. There are many many things I do not know that I do not know about myself. It's so easy to get caught up in the world and to seek approval from outsiders, but then I remind myself to come back inside, and that the outside world doesn't really exist, it only exists as I create it so.

Once you've mastered the inside you have mastered the outside.

But human beings being human want problems and drama, humans love it, for it gives us purpose to go on from day to day to want to constantly succeed and improve and grow and create more drama. If we didn't have problems we would all be in pure paradise with no agenda and we'd be saying I want to experience other feelings like fear and anger and sadness! Give me more emotions! Hence we have opposites joy and fear.

How indulged are you into drama?

The more immersed you are, the more you live in pain and suffering.

Challenges: Getting consumed in the outside world!

Triumphs: Today is 3 weeks since I have been 100% full raw vegan on the 21 Day Spring Cleanse! ( I feel fantastic, clear, light, clean and energetic! I managed to stay committed to the cleanse while working 10-12 hour work days on film set and maintain stamina and endurance :)

What I Ate Today:

Meal fest 1: Blackberries. Cherries.

Meal fest 2: Avocado.

Meal fest 3: 2 nectarines.

Meal fest 4: A orange and grapefruit juice.

Meal fest 5: Cherries, rockmelon (cantaloupe), raw cauliflower.

Meal fest 6: Brazil nuts.

Exercise: A one hour sweat workout at the gym! Some running, riding and climbing stairs and ab work :) While watching a documentary on Discovery channel about the salmon - fascinating and rich :)

146 days to go!!!


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