Monday, November 16, 2009
(Me enjoying the earth....the Grand Canyon)
Thoughts: "Being" with feeling great. So I am a human "being". And I am "being" a human. And today I got that I had an issue with "being" with feeling great. Everything was going great for me with this Earth Diet, I was feeling alive, excited, inspired, healthy, lean, my outer self looked glowy and basically feeling great! I suppose this scared my unconscious self and last night I self sabotaged this feeling.
This is what I did: I finished my beautiful homemade thai dinner and felt great and alive and awake, it was 8pm, and because I had been feeling great for 22 days on the Earth Diet, I freaked out, so I made myself another fillet of chicken, and then was full, but wasnt feeling crap enough so cut up some potatoes and fired them in olive oil to fill my body with starch right before bed. Then I thought I would add some acidity to the mix so I ate 5 passionfruit. By now I was over it and tired so I went to bed feeling crappy. Then I woke up still feeling like that, but actually worse, constipated, my body still trying to process the chicken and potatoes! Aaaahhhh! And so I went from feeling totally alive and great, too feeling tired and clogged! This is the exact process that I did for 5 years before the Earth Diet, althought it wasn't earth foods I would binge on, I would eat a jar of nutella, a box of tim tams, doritos, a kebab, anything gross I could get my hands on that would make me feel totally sick and tired. Totally insane and unconscious I know! A conscious person would not do this, for that action is totally human prohibiting and unconscious. It's like when I get in that zone, unconsciousness takes over, and I am not living true to my full human "being" self expression. Instead I am "being" small, tired, pathetic, not being responsible, weak.
So this is what you can count on me for now: I declare that for the duration of this Earth Diet, that I am committed to being and feeling great all the time. I am also committed to "being" with feeling great. And I hve just now altered the conversation with myself from 'I don't deserve to feel great all the time, It's too good to be true, it's not me' to 'I deserve to feel great all the time!!!'. Because you know one day will be my last, and I'm not risking being in a daze that day, I am totally in love with being alive, and so deserve to experience every moment for what it is, pristine. And every human being on the planet deserves this also!!!! It makes me sad that humans create pain and suffering for themselves. And I did this for 5 years, and still do, but I am so committed to living a life I love, and that does not include wasting moments tired and over it caused by bingeing!!!!
Next time you are feeling great, notice how long it lasts (a few minutes, hours, days, weeks, months?) before your mind sets in and creates drama or upset. And it's not wrong or bad, your mind is not evil, it's just conditioned that way, we were born into that, and now it's the years for people to wake up and become alive, and to become conscious and connected with ourselves, our temples (bodies), the earth and each other! I can honestly say I LOVE YOU! Because I know who you really are, an absolutely extraordinary and unique conscious love, light and peace being!
Challenges: Today was a huge day for me. I gave up sugar! My friend Elisha wrote to me one day and said I should give up sugar! Ahhh I was thinking no wat, thats too huge of a commitment, I need sugar, how can I live without and bla bla blaaaa! I have incorporated sugar (brown sugar and raw sugar) into my Earth Diet because I saw it as being earthy coming from the cane, however I have learnt how even though it comes from the earth, it has been refined and processed for it to look like that in the packet. I also did the sugar test with Bryan and Omar and they were so blown away by the results and how immediately sugar weakens your muscles! (the sugar test is in an earlier blog, contact me if you want to know it!). So today when I was in binge mode 'i want to feel crap, i don't deserve to feel good' mode I had oats with cocoa and brown sugar. I felt so tired and drowsy and over it that I just wanted to sleep and go watch a movie and eat apple pie instead of dealing with the things I needed to deal with today! So after that, when I got what I got what I wrote above, I said enough is enough, I don't need sugar, why eat something that actually makes me feel worse than better? Totally crazy! SO NO MORE SUGAR FOR ME!!! An alternative to sugar is honey and agave syrup. I have used agave syrup quite a lot over the last two weeks in cooking (awesome in curries) and great for making chocolate! The best thing is that it's a natural sweet syrup from a plant and has a low GI!
Triumphs: Getting committed to "being" with feel great! Huge!!!!
What I Ate Today:
Breakfast: two fried eggs in olive oil, strawberries, and a juice with beetroot, carrot, celery and ginger.
Lunch: potato chips (potatoes cut in chunks) cooked in olive oil (way better than takeaway chips!) with lettuce and eggplant and zuchinni.
Dinner: garlic and ginger chicken with brocoli and brown rice. (recipe below)
Dessert:1/2 a green apple
Snacks: oats with cocoa powder and brown sugar.
Cost: spent no money on food today!
Recipe: Garlic and Ginger chicken with broccoli and brown rice! (I would usually add soy sauce to this, but today I gave up soy, and it's actually nicer without the sauce, it tasted more earthy and more whole!)
1. Free Range organic chicken fillets or breasts cut into squares
2. broccoli (or any veggie you want!)
5. Brown Rice
1. Cut up as much garlic and ginger as you want! fry with olive oil in a pan until golden.
2. Add chicken. Fry until golden.
3. Add broccoli. Let stir fry for a few minutes until the juices from the garlic and ginger seep into the broccoli and chicken (mmmm getting hungry?!)
4. Add cooked brown rice to the stir fry and fry all together for a minute.
5. Serve! Soo good! I love garlic and ginger together! Ginger and garlic are the most powerful team bacteria fighters!
Exercise: 20 minutes running and 15 minutes in the sauna. I met the most inspiring extraordinary man in the sauna today. He was hit by a train at 14 years old and lost his eye sight. He chose to live life fully over comittting suicide. He now competes for the commonwealth games and is applying for Harvard next year! Talk about appreciation for life! It totally gets me present to enjoying my eye sight and not taking it for granted!
343 days to go!